vincentadultwoman asked:
This seems to be a common viewpoint.
To be honest, I’m not afraid of much. I’m not like some friggin’ dare devil but I barely have any really serious fears. The one thing I’m most afraid of isn’t an object or emotion or creature. It’s growing up. Think about it, this summer is about half over. It feels like just yesterday I was so excited that school was out, and now it’s almost time to go back. I adore summer. It’s the one time of year that I’m as close to happy as I can probably get for now. So, I , like most other students, hate the fact that it can’t last forever. But what I hate more is that I’m going to get older. That I won’t always be able to love my job as much as I do now. I won’t always be able to be as carefree and not think about my decisions quite as much, and I definitely won’t be able to have as much fun as I do now. Which is why I’m honestly dreading getting older. I know people say that college is fun, and probably some of the best days of your life, but to me it’s just another step towards becoming old. I see that having kids can be fun, and I like the idea of getting married, but what about when your kids grow up? Or when you come to a point of where a neighborhood cookout becomes the highlight of your summer? Not where I ever want to get to. As tough as high school is, the summer makes up for the sucky-ness of the school year, as do the weekends. I think I’m so afraid of it because I have absolutely zero control over it. I can’t stop time by any means, and I can’t stay young forever. So I guess that’s why I try to take life as it comes and just have fun, and not get worked up about things that don’t even matter.
I’m freaking dreading school right now more than I ever had. Probably because I get as close to happy as I can during the summer. I can’t write any more about this topic or I’ll freak out.
vincentadultwoman asked:
yes! we should be friends! i would like it if you me and nick took part in shenanigans this summer hehe
A life without love is like a year without summer.
Today was such a beautiful day. I was at a funeral in the morning so I didn’t go to school, but when I got home, I put on shorts and a tank top and went outside on my swings for a while. I know it’s not that warm out but I just wanted to feel free, like summer.
Just because something doesn’t last forever, it doesn’t mean it wasn’t meaningful while it did last. It doesn’t mean it wasn’t important.
1. I hate talking about myself 2. I live for summer 3. I often say I hate everyone, but I really don’t. I’m just socially awkward sometimes and frequently not amused by the actions of other people. 4. This sounds so cliche, but I love music so much 5. I don’t completely open up very easily, or trust 6. The fact that I have few friends doesn’t bother me 7.Emotional stability is something I would like to accomplish 8. I’m extremely afraid of being left by people I love 9. I cannot wait to leave this town
I sailed from 9am to 6:30pm today. I freakin’ love summer. Soon, I’ll write about something legit.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
